Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello Me,

This is my first letter to my present self, and honestly, I don’t know what to write. XD

I guess I could use this as a kind of diary for where I am right now?

But what I really want to tell myself is how proud I am.
You are in a place that most people will never reach. You’ve gone through so much, and you came out of it not just stronger, but also wiser. You used your pain to move forward. You used what you had to get ahead.

Was it sometimes petty? Yes. And sometimes it still is.
Is it usually a bit dark? Yes — but you make it light.

I love that you have so much compassion and that you’re capable of so much depth.
I love that you can set boundaries and actually hold them for yourself.
I love how your brain works in such complex and weird ways.
I love how creative you are.
I love how much you care about “stupid” things — just because.
I love how you laugh way too loud and fill a room with so much joy just by being present.
I love that you can see all those things about yourself and still hold space to be so much more.

I love how you accept the silly things about yourself and find them amusing.
I love that you’re not afraid to be “bad” or stupid.
I love that you enjoy asking questions.
And I love that you took care of me.

But most of all, I love that you’re alive.

I’m so grateful I get to be you — to experience life through this perspective — and I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

I guess in the end, this is just a soppy love letter to myself.
But it was needed — and long overdue.

Lots and lots of love,
Me