Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello, my lovely,

I wish you could see how much you have grown. I wish I could write you a whole book about what you have achieved and how you got there! I wish you could see what you have become. I would love to share all of this with you! You deserve so much happiness and so much joy, and I am sorry that it took so long for you to find it.

We did something amazing today, and even if you’ll never know, I wanted to share it with you because it would never have been possible without you!

I was triggered today. I had a situation that reminded me of all the times when Mum wouldn’t listen or tried to “force” her point of view onto us. It reminded me of all the times when I was not allowed to be myself and had to accept someone else’s opinion to be accepted. It scared me, and I wanted to go back into that pattern of just saying yes, so that I could move on and be at peace. But I didn’t do that. I stayed true to myself.

I worked through the trigger, analysed it, looked at where it came from, and took what was mine. Everything that was not mine to carry was left behind. I also realised some other amazing truths about myself…

You were so scared of intimacy, and people truly connecting with you felt like the most terrifying thing that could happen. Well, we’ve made it to a point where we crave intimacy and where connection is a requirement!

We have made it! Your goals weren’t too high! They were reachable, and you’ve reached them! You made it!

And even though it was in the dark, and even though no one will ever know what an achievement that is because nobody knows how high the mountain was that you had to climb, I know, and I saw you, and I am so amazed that words fail me.

You are my light and my hero. Thank you.

Lots of love,
Future you