Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello you,

I don’t even know how to start…

We let go of our inner child today.

There’s nothing more to it really. I would honestly like to leave it at that, but I do also want to explain…

It’s strange to say it and feel it. It’s strange to know that I have actually managed to heal my inner child so much that she no longer wants to be by my side. It felt like I was suffocating her with my presence, and I guess I was. I kept looking to her for answers because that’s all I’ve ever known. I kept trying to be her because it would be easy, but I’m not her anymore. I have grown, and I am responsible for my own life now. I am responsible for me now. She has done her part, and by holding on to her, I was doing all the things that others had done to her. I was making her responsible for my life, and she is not. She is supposed to play and have fun. I let her feel safe, so now she can go.

So I let her go. I let her go with as much love as I can carry. I watched her fade, laughing as she skipped away.

I do feel a little lost, but I know it’s the right thing to do.

I just don’t know what’s next, and that’s scary. I’ve never been here before. I’ve always had my inner child to help me and guide me. And that’s exactly the problem. She was never meant to guide me. She was meant to just exist, to explore the world and have fun.

I already know that I do not have that liberty. I do not have the freedom to not think about tomorrow, because I have responsibilities now. But I will let myself have moments of peace and moments of just existing, and I will try to make things more fun in honour of her. In honour of my little inner child.

I am so proud of her. I am so proud of me!

We actually made it here. We made it to a point where we have healed the inner child. I honestly do not know where to go from here, but I am truly excited to move to the next chapter of my life!

I can’t wait to see what comes next!

Lots of love,
Me