Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello my sweetness,

It’s time… I know it’s scary as hell. But it’s time.

We have to choose. Are we taking the next step towards becoming, or are we going back?

It’s okay if you choose to go back. The next step and what we are walking towards is scary. It is hard and unknown. It is something we have never seen before. It is something we have never even known about before.

It’s okay for you to decide to go back. It is okay for you to decide that you are not strong or brave enough for what’s next. I will never force you to do anything.

I want you to take the next step with confidence and with trust in yourself. Only then will you succeed.

I hope you choose the next step, because I think you’re ready. I feel like you have learned everything that you can learn from your past and it’s time to step into the present and walk towards the future.

I already feel that you have chosen to go the next step with me, and I am grateful for that. I am truly so proud of you for choosing to move ahead and for choosing to take that leap of faith together with me.

I don’t know what’s next, and yes, I am also very scared, but I know that we will get through any kind of trouble.

I will get through this, and I will get through the trouble… You won’t be there… You are not part of this next step…

Me making this choice and choosing to move ahead means letting you go completely. There won’t be a chance of turning back…

I guess that’s why it’s so hard for me to choose. If I stay here, I have you. If I leave, I will be on my own. I will be responsible for myself and cannot blame anyone for anything but myself.

I have to trust my judgement and my intuition completely. I cannot rely on old patterns or old belief systems, because they are not going to work.

Yet I feel a calm within me because I know that it’s okay. I can do this. I have made it this far, and I do not want to turn back. I want to leave you behind. Not out of hate or disdain. I want to leave you behind because we both deserve peace. You deserve to finally rest, and I deserve to move on to a happy and freeing life.

I don’t know exactly who you are. I know you’re not my inner child. She is gone…

You’re my fighter! I know I told you that we would be in the council together, and I wish I could keep that promise, but we both know that it’s time for you to rest. It’s time to find your little cottage in the middle of nowhere and live a life away from everything, where you can cultivate a garden so vast that you can live off it. With some animals that keep you company.

Thank you for helping me, and thank you for fighting until the liberating end.

We are ready to part ways now, and I thank you for everything that you have done for me.

I am ready for the next step, and I am ready to take it by myself, because you have prepared me so wonderfully.

Lots of love,
Me