Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello my sweetness,

I see you. I know you are running and hiding. I see how scared you are. I see how much you hate this. I see how much you don’t want this.

It’s okay that you’re scared. It’s okay that you are hiding, and it’s okay that you are running.

I’ve got this. I can carry this until you’re ready. I can carry your dreams and hopes until you’re ready to step into them. I will carry on building the foundation for you until you’re ready to build on it.

We had a dream come true yesterday, and it was such a big dream. It wasn’t just a dream come true, it was a confirmation of every new belief you’ve worked so hard to create. Your whole world got turned upside down yesterday, in the most positive way, and I get that it’s a lot.

You’ve had such an amazing week, and I get that it doesn’t feel safe. I get that it feels like a trap, and that you want to run away from it. If I hadn’t built this life brick by brick, I wouldn’t believe it myself… I’d probably be running with you.

But I have built this life, this reality, this moment. I’ve built the foundation that allowed this moment, and this week, to come in. I’ve built the foundation so that we can build our life. And the fact that I’m still standing here, holding my hand out to you, waiting patiently for you to reach out and grab it so we can carry on together, shows me how far we’ve both come.

It wasn’t easy to get here, but we made it. We made it to a point in our life where we can take the uncomfortable and the scary and just sit in it. We can feel it without destroying what we’ve built.

I can still enjoy the happiness of the moment while you are scared. One doesn’t take away from the other, so it’s okay for you to be scared. It doesn’t take away from my happiness. So when you’re ready, I’d love to share this moment with you.

Not just the happy part, but the scary part too. I want to share this moment completely with you, not just a part, not just your story or mine, but everything. Your part is just as valid as mine, and you have just as much right to be here as I do.

You’ve been through so much, and you’re still standing here — still brave enough to face it. Maybe not just yet, but I know you’re gathering your strength so that we can face what’s coming next together. I hope you’ll join me soon, because this is just as much yours as it is mine, and I’d love to have you by my side when I take the next step.

And I promise I will not rush you. I will not push you. We will take these steps together, as equals.

And I will stand the ground when you are not able to. I will hold the space when you can’t. I will be here for you when you need me most.

So, I’ll be here when you’re ready. I will love you even when you don’t want me to. And I will wait for you, even if you don’t see me.

I’m already so excited about the next step we’ll take together, and I’m so eager to see you ready for this.

But I will wait for you. I will stand here and wait for you.

See you soon, my lovely.

Lots of love,
Me