Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello my sweet,

I want to take a moment to share your successes with you. Something that’s come a bit short these last few weeks. So here it is.

First success:
We’ve lost weight. So much so that a few things don’t fit as tightly anymore and you had to tighten your corsets. I’m genuinely proud of you. Not because you went on a diet, but because you started to release the burdens you were carrying. You know you don’t need to hide anymore, because you can protect yourself now. You didn’t lose weight through force, you lost it because you don’t need it anymore. I don’t know if we’ll keep losing weight, but it’s beautiful to see how comfortable you’re becoming in your own skin.

Second success:
You actually sat down and read a book. Not just read it, but truly got lost in it. You didn’t feel guilty for doing “nothing” and you weren’t escaping. You were simply enjoying a really good book. That’s something to be proud of. You’ve been chasing progress for so long, and to finally feel safe enough to say, “It will come. It’s already on its way. I’m allowed to relax,” without guilt or the need to run, is honestly incredible. I’m so proud of you.

Third success:
You’re finally allowing yourself to just exist. You don’t perform for anyone anymore. You don’t only live when someone else is watching. You’re starting to live for yourself. You can laugh when you’re on your own, be when you want to be, and feel even when no one is watching. You’re not on standby anymore when you’re alone. And I’m so grateful I get to see you. To truly see you. I’ve been waiting for this for so long. So: hi. Thank you for being here.

These might seem like such small, unnecessary things to be happy about, but that’s exactly why they matter. They’re so mundane that they should go without saying. But they didn’t, not for a long time. Maybe not ever. So for you to do the little things, and for them to come almost naturally… that is true success. That is real growth.

To me, it means your roots have finally taken hold. And now you can start to grow into the plant or tree you were always meant to be.

Thank you for letting me witness it. And for letting me be the one who helps you grow.

I can’t wait to be with you every step of the way.

Lots of love,
Me