Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hello my sweetness,

Why are you running away? What are you running from? And why don’t you feel safe enough to show me what’s wrong?

There is hurt. I feel your heart aching. It’s okay to show it, and it’s okay to let it out.

I honestly don’t need to understand it to know it’s valid. Sometimes emotions are stored in our bodies, and we don’t even know what event caused these emotions, and that’s okay.

I don’t need to know why you feel hurt.

But I do… don’t I?!

You were abandoned again by Mum.

You feel like she left you again. You feel like she discarded you again.

But the thing is… it feels like that, but it’s not true. She did leave, and the circumstances definitely weren’t very favourable. But you weren’t abandoned or discarded.

Your safety and your happiness… Your joy doesn’t depend on her anymore.

It’s okay that you hurt. You lost someone truly important, and it’s completely natural that you feel this way, and you are allowed to feel this way for as long as you need to.

I just want you to know that Mum might have left again, but you weren’t abandoned or discarded this time.

Because now it’s not her responsibility to take care of you. It’s mine. I am here to lead you and care for you. I am here for your safety.

So feel as you are feeling for as long as you need to, but please know that I am here, and I will not leave you. I will choose you every time. I will choose your happiness over your comfort, and I will choose your satisfaction over your short-term fun every time.

I am here for you, and I am allowing you to be happy. I am choosing your happiness. I am choosing you every day anew.

Lots of love,

Me