Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey you,

I’d love to write something. I’d love to talk and tell you how I feel.

But how do you put feelings into words when they have no description?

I honestly don’t know what’s going on right now. I don’t know why I’m feeling sad. I don’t know why my heart is hurting. I just know it is. I can’t tell you why… but maybe I can tell you how.

People always talk about how the heart breaks into a million pieces.

But what happens when it implodes? What happens when it collapses into itself and just stops expanding? What happens when it leaves nothing but a hollow space in your chest when it’s done hurting?

What’s the difference between an implosion and an explosion?

Which one hurts more? Which one is worse? Are they both the same?

Or are they just two sides of the same double-edged sword?

It feels like my heart has imploded, and I don’t know why. I don’t know why it had to hide…

I just know it hurts… and feels empty at the same time.

I’m sorry I can’t tell you more.

Lots of love,
Me