Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey you,

I want to get annoyed. I want to throw a little tantrum and roll around on the floor because I didn’t get the crisps that I wanted. I want to ball my fists and pout like there is no tomorrow…

and you know what? I can do that!

You know what truly annoys me right now? I have no drama. I have nothing in my life that is making me feel unhappy or uncomfortable. I am lacking so much drama, that life has to create drama for me.

What drama has life created for me? It set my bathroom under water. My washing machine didn’t pump the water out properly, so that I had something to be mad about.

My life is so boring, that it said: please let something happen, and the best it could come up with is setting my bathroom under water… That is apparently too much drama, because nothing else has happened since then.

My life is so peaceful, that I had to create drama myself… How? Well, I was thirsty but I couldn’t choose what I wanted to drink. Do I want water? Or maybe tea? But if I have tea, then I would either have to wash my teapot or my thermos flask. I could make myself a cappuccino but then I would have to get up earlier again to get another drink, and then I would have the same problem…

You get the point.

Instead of just getting something to drink, I needed to create chaos and drama because I don’t have any in my life.

I don’t even have people in my life that can lend me their drama. Even the shows I watch at the moment aren’t that chaotic, that I feel like I can’t cope… Well, ok, there was one but that was different…. It was funny chaotic. It wasn’t the “take me by the hair and drag me into the depth of not knowing where to look” kinda chaotic.

Also, those shows always end with a resolve.. so I don’t know if that would even count.

But yeah… I am annoyed at the peaceful life that I have built myself and I miss being able to complain about the problems that I created myself while also being the victim of the story I wrote.

Could we please add some fun into this life soon?

Would be really nice and appreciated 🙂

Lots of love

me