Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey me,

I have to admit that I don’t really feel like writing at the moment. I have a few things going on, and I feel like moving on from this blog right now. Would people still have interest in reading my thoughts? Am I still learning? Do I profit from writing? Why do I want to write?

I think that’s the main reason: I don’t know why I should carry on writing. I used to do it to get clear on my thoughts and emotions. I used to write to show people that there is a way out. I used to write to share my thoughts with others. I used to write to connect with myself.

I feel like none of those reasons are still relevant for me.

I am pretty clear on my thoughts and emotions most of the time, and even when I’m not, I can clear them up pretty fast.
I think I have already put down that there is a way out and maybe even shown people (at least myself) how.
I probably still have thoughts that I want to share with others, but the blog doesn’t feel like it’s the right space. I feel like I should do that more in real time when talking to people and actually use my voice to share my thoughts, not just through writing.
I am connected with myself now. I don’t need to do it through the blog.

So the question is, why should I keep writing? Because I definitely want to keep doing this. I just don’t have a reason right now.

I also know that I won’t find one by forcing it. Usually things just kind of happen for me. The reason to keep writing will reveal itself. I just haven’t seen the reason yet.

Maybe it’s simply to show myself how far I have come and so I have a way to reflect back on my growth one day.

I don’t really have a reason to quit, and I don’t have a reason to continue. So I am deciding to keep going until I have a reason to quit. That way, I might find a new reason to carry on.

I know that I would regret quitting without a reason more than carrying on without one.

It’s kind of exciting not knowing what this will develop into.

Lots of love

Me

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