Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey me,

I just had a thought and I have to get it out before it runs away from me.

So if we are chasing goals that take up space and try to “catch” every empty space that is available, then we are never done.

Also, by doing that we are forgetting to manage our time.

So basically we are chasing clouds thinking they are pillows, while thinking we have enough time to sleep once we have caught a cloud. What we don’t realise is: we can’t catch a cloud because it’s not made of wool.

That would also explain why we feel like we’re running in a hamster wheel all the time. We are chasing clouds… You can’t catch a cloud.

I have no idea if this makes any sense to other people, but for me it’s clear as day right now…

So how would I explain my thoughts to a friend?

First, I would tell her that the clouds are space. Clouds are also infinite. They don’t have a specific shape or weight that they have to stick to.

Wool, on the other hand, has a pattern. Wool will have different colours, but it is basically always the same.

Time is always the same. It moves forward. It moves in one direction and everyone gets the same. It doesn’t matter where on this earth you are: everyone gets 24 hours.

Space, on the other hand, is different for everyone. Depending on where you are in this world, you have different views, different conditions and different amounts of space. But it is always up to the person themselves how much they want to explore, see and experience.

We don’t have control over time. We might be able to influence it, but we don’t control when we leave this earth.

We do, however, control where we are.

So that would explain to me why people feel so lost sometimes. They are trying to control something that cannot be controlled instead of trying to take the space that they are able to choose themselves.

I feel like that last part sounds very judgemental, but it’s not meant that way. Am I still judging myself for not realising this sooner? Am I judging myself for not realising sooner that time is a limited edition?

Are you judging me?

Yeah, a part of me is still judging.

I don’t know why… I mean, it’s not that obvious. Our whole society is trained to believe that there isn’t enough for everyone. We are trained to want what others have. So how was I supposed to know that the real treasure is time?

How was I supposed to know that I am a limited edition in this world?

So please don’t judge… It’s not fair and it does not help me to like myself. Rather, help me understand so that we can laugh about it together.

Lots of love

Me