Author: Sarazaurus
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Another Good-Bye
Hello my Sweetness, We lost something big today. It’s the fourth time we’ve had to let go of our mother and face the fact that she isn’t part of our life in the way we wish she were. I understand the reasons and they are valid. That doesn’t change the fact that it hurts. It…
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I can handle this
Hello, my dear, We need to prepare for a fight. It’s going to be a hard battle, but we’ll win because we have before. We’re in an environment where our boundaries aren’t being respected, and it’s hurting you. I don’t want you to hurt, so we need to set boundaries and keep them. Let’s do…
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My Walk Without Grounding
Hello, So today appears to be the day I talk about my experience with psychosis. This is not an easy topic for me. It was a very scary time in my life, and honestly, I still don’t quite understand what happened or remember everything that did. This takes a lot of courage to talk about,…
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My Walk with Hopelessness
Hello, Today I rewrite my past.Today I become the hero of my story.Today I am the main character.Today I become me. Depression has been my companion for probably 27 years of my life. I didn’t know there was a life without depression until two years ago, when I talked to a friend about the symptoms,…
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It’s not Fair
Hey, I’m angry at you, and I cannot tell you why. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know. Well, I do know. I’m hurting. I’m hurting, and anger feels safer than hurting. Being angry at you means I don’t have to feel my pain. It means I’m in control. It means…
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… to Silence
Dear Silence, I know now that you aren’t really silent. I know that you are the whisper within me, trying to guide me without forcing me, trying to heal me without pressuring me, trying to love me without losing me. I understand now that you are me. You are the part of me that I…
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Finally Listening….
Hey my sweet, This isn’t going to be a long letter to you, but I wanted to take a moment to tell you about the last few days and why I’m so proud of you right now. Your body kind of gave out on Thursday and said, “I need some time,” by getting sick. And…
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Finding me in Silence
Hello my sweet, I want to take a moment to share your successes with you. Something that’s come a bit short these last few weeks. So here it is. First success:We’ve lost weight. So much so that a few things don’t fit as tightly anymore and you had to tighten your corsets. I’m genuinely proud…
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Full of Myself
Hey my lovely, I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you in a while. I was just surviving for a little while. I was in a low… and I am honestly so glad that I was. I was in a low, and it was like the good days back then. If I look back to two…
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My Walk with Death
Hello, Today I am starting with my first post in which I actually write about my experiences. I won’t be holding back, so take this as your trigger warning. I want people to see that they are not alone. Not just in the sense that they know other people have similar problems, but that they…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 