Category: Dear Future
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I can’t let go yet
Hello You, I am scared. I feel like everything is falling apart, and I am desperately trying to hold on to the pieces to keep them in place. It feels like everything I’ve built, everything I’ve worked for, is breaking away. It feels like the world around me is crumbling. I know that it has…
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I hate you!
Hey you, Today, I hate you. I hate you so much that I want to hurt you. I hate you so much that I want to fall back into my food addiction. I hate you so much that I just want to give up. What is the point of this? What is the point of…
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Paradox of being Scared
Hey, my Sweetness, I’m sorry that I haven’t talked to you in a while. I was trying to think my way through this and forgot… that’s not how it works. I have something amazing to tell you! I was able to feel scared for the first time in 15 years! It was brief and not…
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I love you already
Dear Future, I started! I took those first steps! I accepted that I am who I am right now and that I am not who I need to be to achieve what I want to achieve. Well, that’s not entirely true. I could achieve it, but I wouldn’t be able to hold it. I am…
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Not enough… yet
Hello, sunshine. I don’t know where to start right now, because it’s all a bit much. You’re asking for a bit much. I don’t feel like I’m ready.I’m not ready.I can’t be. There’s so much I don’t know.So much I haven’t done yet.I can’t step up.I can’t be who you need me to be right…
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I Start Today
Dear Future, We don’t know each other yet, and that is very scary. You could be anything. You could be a dream come true or the nightmare under the bed. I know that I shape you. I am the one who creates you, and I am the one who decides what you look like. That…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 