Tag: love
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My Walk with Hopelessness
Hello, Today I rewrite my past.Today I become the hero of my story.Today I am the main character.Today I become me. Depression has been my companion for probably 27 years of my life. I didn’t know there was a life without depression until two years ago, when I talked to a friend about the symptoms,…
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It’s not Fair
Hey, I’m angry at you, and I cannot tell you why. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know. Well, I do know. I’m hurting. I’m hurting, and anger feels safer than hurting. Being angry at you means I don’t have to feel my pain. It means I’m in control. It means…
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Finding me in Silence
Hello my sweet, I want to take a moment to share your successes with you. Something that’s come a bit short these last few weeks. So here it is. First success:We’ve lost weight. So much so that a few things don’t fit as tightly anymore and you had to tighten your corsets. I’m genuinely proud…
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Full of Myself
Hey my lovely, I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you in a while. I was just surviving for a little while. I was in a low… and I am honestly so glad that I was. I was in a low, and it was like the good days back then. If I look back to two…
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Time to be Brave
Dear Reader, I have to be honest. This letter is more to myself than it is to you. I’m starting a new chapter in this blog, and truthfully, I don’t yet know where it will take me. I just know I want to do this, and it scares the living hell out of me. I…
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This shouldn’t scare me
Hello my sweetness, I see you. I know you are running and hiding. I see how scared you are. I see how much you hate this. I see how much you don’t want this. It’s okay that you’re scared. It’s okay that you are hiding, and it’s okay that you are running. I’ve got this.…
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Choose Me
Hey, You want to know what I am missing? You truly want to know? It’s you! I am missing you! I am missing everything, and you won’t even give me a little bit of what I want! What do I want? I want someone who holds me when I can’t hold myself. I want someone…
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It’s ok to Hate me
Hey, my Lovely, I heard you and I understand how painful this is for you. Please believe me when I say that I wish it could be the other way round. I wish you could have had my joy. I wish you could have had my life. I wish you could have just been you.…
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I hate you!
Hey you, Today, I hate you. I hate you so much that I want to hurt you. I hate you so much that I want to fall back into my food addiction. I hate you so much that I just want to give up. What is the point of this? What is the point of…
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Be Angry at Me
Hello, my sweetness, I get why you couldn’t let go of him now. It was never about him, was it? You couldn’t let go because I abandoned you again. I pushed through and kept holding on even though you kept telling me that you didn’t want to… You kept telling me it wasn’t right. You…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 