Tag: relationships
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My Wrongdoings
Hey me, I think it’s my turn to talk about my time as a Jehovah’s Witness. Maybe the reason I haven’t really done that yet is because I know what consequences it could have for me… Leaving the community meant losing everyone and everything I knew. I wasn’t allowed to be in contact with family…
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No Explanation
Hey me, I just realised what kind of privilege it is to be able to say, “I will start the new year without a plan or goal.” How amazing it is that I trust myself enough to be able to say, “One year is just to see how far I have come and to see…
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Preparing for Me
Hey me, I am looking around and I am asking myself, “How did I earn the privilege to live this life and experience me?” Does that sound too conceited? What I mean is: how am I allowed to experience myself as such a lively and happy person? How am I allowed to experience myself as…
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One More Day
Hey me, Thank you for surviving. I know I have had some posts about this, but today I am just so grateful. Not just for surviving because you made it, but also because of the life that I am allowed to live because of it. It may not sound different to my other posts because…
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Fingers Crossed
Hey me, I am actually annoyed at me right now. Why do I always feel like a failure when things are starting to change? Why do I always feel like the worst person? Why do I always think I am not enough? Is it because I haven’t proven myself to be enough yet? I don’t…
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Being honest.
Hey me, The good thing about living my whole life sabotaging myself? I know how to sabotage things without being the one who looks guilty. But did I really sabotage this, or did I just make a decision and it turned in my favour? But then again, if I start something with an expectation, it…
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What’s Next
Hey me, So… I met someone… There goes the “40 Years” plan… I’m used to overthinking it. Usually I try to figure out if this person is my person, and if we will be together forever, and if I’d want to marry him. This time it’s different. I am able to hold myself in the…
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Acceptance
Hello, I had an interesting chat with AI today. It kept asking me to dig deeper and to go further. I asked it why I should do that. AI answered that I was using my circling technique as a mechanism to protect myself. That I was using it to avoid things that I didn’t want…
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Three Days Later
Hey me, I promised that I would come back after three days to process what’s going on. To see why I feel like a failure and why I feel so negative about life… I also want to find out why I’m eating more again. I said that my blog will probably become less about processing…
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The End?
Hey Me, I feel like the content of my blog might change soon… I feel like the more I step into the life I have created for myself, the less it will be about processing emotions and more about living my first life. I will probably share my journey but I feel like I don’t…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 