Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey, my Lovely,

I heard you and I understand how painful this is for you. Please believe me when I say that I wish it could be the other way round. I wish you could have had my joy. I wish you could have had my life. I wish you could have just been you.

I can’t change the past, and there’s no use dwelling on it.

The only thing I can promise you right now is that I will live a life for you. I want to live a life for you.

I want to do the things you enjoyed. I want to try the things you were never allowed to do. I want to learn what you never had the chance to learn.

When I said I want to honour your sacrifice with every step, I didn’t just mean the inner child. I meant you as well, the teenager who was never allowed to just live and see what the world had to offer. The teenager who was told she was difficult and angry, when really she was stuck in an unfair situation.

I want to give you your turn now. I want to give you the life you were meant to have… even if it’s a bit late.

Well… no. It’s never too late, is it?

So please, tell me what you want. Tell me what you need, so I can be who you need me to be.

Because even if you hate me right now, I still love you with all my heart. I want to see you happy. I want to share this joy with you.

I don’t want to have it alone. I want you in it with me. I want to see you smile. I want to hear you laugh. I want to see you be joy. I want to know who you are when you’re not angry, but happy. I want to see who you truly are.

So please. Let me get to know you. Let me be who you need me to be.

With all my love,
Me