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My Capacity
Hey you, I don’t know if we are pausing or running right now. Maybe both? I want to act like I have it all together and like I know what I am doing, but honestly I feel really lost right now. It feels like I am hanging in the air flying and I don’t know…
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Looking Back
Hey you, Are you trying to reward me for letting you behave in ways I don’t condone? I have let you run away and hide for the past few weeks. I have taken it easy. I haven’t pushed and I let you do whatever you wanted. Usually I would have tried to fix and I…
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Thank You
Hey my lovely, Thank you for letting me call you lovely, for letting me caress you with my words for the first time. Thank you for letting me see you for the first time. I think I understand you a little better now. I think I know what was missing in all those years when…
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Being Enough
Hey you, I talked about how I don’t know how to work with the feelings I am having about a relationship. The thing is… I don’t know if I even understand the feelings. I don’t know if I even know what I am feeling. I just know it hurts right now. I just know that…
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Still Learning
Hey you, I honestly don’t know how to start or even what to say. I feel your pain. I feel you craving a relationship. I feel how anxious you are to talk about it. I am sorry for judging you. I know that there is still a part of me that judges you for wanting…
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My Walk towards True Love
Hello, Today I realized I truly love myself. I wrote the post “The Cost of Healing” and it made me realize that what I view as true, unbreakable, healthy love is the love I have for myself. So, I thought I’d share my view on love with you, because for me it changed everything. First,…
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The Cost of Healing
Hey you, I have to disappoint you, and it breaks my heart. Today I realised that there is something I cannot do for you, something you have been yearning for. Something you miss so deeply that it feels like your heart is tearing into a thousand pieces when you think about it. And I am…
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Trusting Me
Hello you, I would love to call you sweet or lovely, but I know you don’t want that. I have given you a week. I have given you a week to run and hide. I have given you a week in which I did not ask you to do anything or force you to walk…
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I didn’t Understand
Hello you, I realised the other day that I never thanked you (my teenager) for all the things you have done for me. When I look back on my time as a teenager, I see a very dark time. It was a time of bullying from family, degrading from my father, invisibility at school, violence,…
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Becoming
Hello my Lovely, I’m sorry that I haven’t talked to you in a while. I had a lot going on in my life and I honestly didn’t know what to say to you. I have been letting go of a lot of things and people, and I am still not done yet. I sometimes don’t…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing
Authenticity will Change your World
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 