Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing

Hey me, Have I finally managed to find my middle? Am I finally brave enough to feel the subtle ache? Am I finally able to open up without losing myself? I feel like the answer to all these questions is yes… I am finally able to admit to myself that there is a part of…

Hey me, I did it! I didn’t do a love reading for myself and I didn’t use the cards to “look into the future”! I did do a reading because, I guess, the thought of that reading for the friend being about me did shake me. I don’t quite understand why it shook me… was…

Hey me, I guess the great big lump of chaos has started to show itself, and I have to admit that I am kinda regretting my decision to just be this year. I did a tarot reading for someone yesterday and it completely confused me. It felt like the reading wasn’t just for him but…

Hey me, I am going to out myself as a nerd right now… ok… maybe I’m not… I think anyone following my blog will know I am a nerd… Or would they? Maybe they would suspect it but not know? Either way: I am a nerd… there it is. Anyway, that’s not what I wanted…

Hey me, I feel like my writing has actually changed… I feel like it’s not as wounded as it used to be. I feel like it’s becoming more abstract and matter of fact? I am, in a way, proud of me for having gotten to this point and not having to bleed all over to…

Hey me, I think it’s my turn to talk about my time as a Jehovah’s Witness. Maybe the reason I haven’t really done that yet is because I know what consequences it could have for me… Leaving the community meant losing everyone and everything I knew. I wasn’t allowed to be in contact with family…

Hey me, I just realised what kind of privilege it is to be able to say, “I will start the new year without a plan or goal.” How amazing it is that I trust myself enough to be able to say, “One year is just to see how far I have come and to see…

Hey me, I am looking around and I am asking myself, “How did I earn the privilege to live this life and experience me?” Does that sound too conceited? What I mean is: how am I allowed to experience myself as such a lively and happy person? How am I allowed to experience myself as…

Hey me, Thank you for surviving. I know I have had some posts about this, but today I am just so grateful. Not just for surviving because you made it, but also because of the life that I am allowed to live because of it. It may not sound different to my other posts because…

Hey me, I am actually annoyed at me right now. Why do I always feel like a failure when things are starting to change? Why do I always feel like the worst person? Why do I always think I am not enough? Is it because I haven’t proven myself to be enough yet? I don’t…