Category: Being Me
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There is Hope
Hey me, I guess the great big lump of chaos has started to show itself, and I have to admit that I am kinda regretting my decision to just be this year. I did a tarot reading for someone yesterday and it completely confused me. It felt like the reading wasn’t just for him but…
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Enough for what?
Hey me, I am going to out myself as a nerd right now… ok… maybe I’m not… I think anyone following my blog will know I am a nerd… Or would they? Maybe they would suspect it but not know? Either way: I am a nerd… there it is. Anyway, that’s not what I wanted…
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Great big Lump of Chaos
Hey me, I feel like my writing has actually changed… I feel like it’s not as wounded as it used to be. I feel like it’s becoming more abstract and matter of fact? I am, in a way, proud of me for having gotten to this point and not having to bleed all over to…
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My Wrongdoings
Hey me, I think it’s my turn to talk about my time as a Jehovah’s Witness. Maybe the reason I haven’t really done that yet is because I know what consequences it could have for me… Leaving the community meant losing everyone and everything I knew. I wasn’t allowed to be in contact with family…
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No Explanation
Hey me, I just realised what kind of privilege it is to be able to say, “I will start the new year without a plan or goal.” How amazing it is that I trust myself enough to be able to say, “One year is just to see how far I have come and to see…
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Preparing for Me
Hey me, I am looking around and I am asking myself, “How did I earn the privilege to live this life and experience me?” Does that sound too conceited? What I mean is: how am I allowed to experience myself as such a lively and happy person? How am I allowed to experience myself as…
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One More Day
Hey me, Thank you for surviving. I know I have had some posts about this, but today I am just so grateful. Not just for surviving because you made it, but also because of the life that I am allowed to live because of it. It may not sound different to my other posts because…
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Fingers Crossed
Hey me, I am actually annoyed at me right now. Why do I always feel like a failure when things are starting to change? Why do I always feel like the worst person? Why do I always think I am not enough? Is it because I haven’t proven myself to be enough yet? I don’t…
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Being honest.
Hey me, The good thing about living my whole life sabotaging myself? I know how to sabotage things without being the one who looks guilty. But did I really sabotage this, or did I just make a decision and it turned in my favour? But then again, if I start something with an expectation, it…
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What’s Next
Hey me, So… I met someone… There goes the “40 Years” plan… I’m used to overthinking it. Usually I try to figure out if this person is my person, and if we will be together forever, and if I’d want to marry him. This time it’s different. I am able to hold myself in the…
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