Category: Being Me
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Another Good-Bye
Hello my Sweetness, We lost something big today. It’s the fourth time we’ve had to let go of our mother and face the fact that she isn’t part of our life in the way we wish she were. I understand the reasons and they are valid. That doesn’t change the fact that it hurts. It…
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I can handle this
Hello, my dear, We need to prepare for a fight. It’s going to be a hard battle, but we’ll win because we have before. We’re in an environment where our boundaries aren’t being respected, and it’s hurting you. I don’t want you to hurt, so we need to set boundaries and keep them. Let’s do…
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It’s not Fair
Hey, I’m angry at you, and I cannot tell you why. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know. Well, I do know. I’m hurting. I’m hurting, and anger feels safer than hurting. Being angry at you means I don’t have to feel my pain. It means I’m in control. It means…
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… to Silence
Dear Silence, I know now that you aren’t really silent. I know that you are the whisper within me, trying to guide me without forcing me, trying to heal me without pressuring me, trying to love me without losing me. I understand now that you are me. You are the part of me that I…
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Finally Listening….
Hey my sweet, This isn’t going to be a long letter to you, but I wanted to take a moment to tell you about the last few days and why I’m so proud of you right now. Your body kind of gave out on Thursday and said, “I need some time,” by getting sick. And…
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Finding me in Silence
Hello my sweet, I want to take a moment to share your successes with you. Something that’s come a bit short these last few weeks. So here it is. First success:We’ve lost weight. So much so that a few things don’t fit as tightly anymore and you had to tighten your corsets. I’m genuinely proud…
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Full of Myself
Hey my lovely, I’m sorry I haven’t talked to you in a while. I was just surviving for a little while. I was in a low… and I am honestly so glad that I was. I was in a low, and it was like the good days back then. If I look back to two…
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This shouldn’t scare me
Hello my sweetness, I see you. I know you are running and hiding. I see how scared you are. I see how much you hate this. I see how much you don’t want this. It’s okay that you’re scared. It’s okay that you are hiding, and it’s okay that you are running. I’ve got this.…
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Choose Me
Hey, You want to know what I am missing? You truly want to know? It’s you! I am missing you! I am missing everything, and you won’t even give me a little bit of what I want! What do I want? I want someone who holds me when I can’t hold myself. I want someone…
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Let’s Be Free
Hey, my Sweetness, I get it now. I knew it in a way, but I never really got it… I am scared, and you are my scared. You are a part of me, just like the fighter and the inner child. You have protected me in ways I don’t even realise. I don’t mean to……
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 