Category: Being Me
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Trusting Me
Hello you, I would love to call you sweet or lovely, but I know you don’t want that. I have given you a week. I have given you a week to run and hide. I have given you a week in which I did not ask you to do anything or force you to walk…
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Becoming
Hello my Lovely, I’m sorry that I haven’t talked to you in a while. I had a lot going on in my life and I honestly didn’t know what to say to you. I have been letting go of a lot of things and people, and I am still not done yet. I sometimes don’t…
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Checkers and Books
Hey my lovely, So… we’re losing people left, right, and centre, and the next big thing is probably coming in September. I am so extremely proud of you, and today showed me how far you’ve come. First of all, I’m proud because you’re losing people, and it hurts, but you’re not dwelling on it. You’re okay with losing…
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Spiralling
Hey my lovely, It’s time. It’s time to be active. It’s time to move. I know you’re scared, and I know you’re down, but that’s exactly why we have to move now. I gave you weeks to come to terms, and I feel like you have. You have accepted that you are scared. You have…
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Impoding
Hey you, I’d love to write something. I’d love to talk and tell you how I feel. But how do you put feelings into words when they have no description? I honestly don’t know what’s going on right now. I don’t know why I’m feeling sad. I don’t know why my heart is hurting. I…
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I am Valid
Hello my sweetness, I noticed in my last post that I didn’t give you a fair chance to truly show yourself. I noticed that you were hurting and jumped straight into “fixing mode” without even giving you a chance to speak or show yourself, and for that I am truly sorry, and I honestly get…
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I am Safety
Hello my sweetness, Why are you running away? What are you running from? And why don’t you feel safe enough to show me what’s wrong? There is hurt. I feel your heart aching. It’s okay to show it, and it’s okay to let it out. I honestly don’t need to understand it to know it’s…
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Another Good-Bye
Hello my Sweetness, We lost something big today. It’s the fourth time we’ve had to let go of our mother and face the fact that she isn’t part of our life in the way we wish she were. I understand the reasons and they are valid. That doesn’t change the fact that it hurts. It…
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I can handle this
Hello, my dear, We need to prepare for a fight. It’s going to be a hard battle, but we’ll win because we have before. We’re in an environment where our boundaries aren’t being respected, and it’s hurting you. I don’t want you to hurt, so we need to set boundaries and keep them. Let’s do…
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It’s not Fair
Hey, I’m angry at you, and I cannot tell you why. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know. Well, I do know. I’m hurting. I’m hurting, and anger feels safer than hurting. Being angry at you means I don’t have to feel my pain. It means I’m in control. It means…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 