Category: Being Me
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Deciding
Hey you, I think I am about to disappoint you. I feel so overwhelmed right now, because I have the possibility to actually go to Scotland now and I have the possibility to actually do something, but I want to do more than I am able to. I want to see as much as possible.…
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Choices
Hey you, I feel like it’s about time to say goodbye. I feel like we are about to part ways because everything has been said and done that needed to be said and done. I have to admit that I don’t know how I did it. I don’t even know why we are at this…
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My Capacity
Hey you, I don’t know if we are pausing or running right now. Maybe both? I want to act like I have it all together and like I know what I am doing, but honestly I feel really lost right now. It feels like I am hanging in the air flying and I don’t know…
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Looking Back
Hey you, Are you trying to reward me for letting you behave in ways I don’t condone? I have let you run away and hide for the past few weeks. I have taken it easy. I haven’t pushed and I let you do whatever you wanted. Usually I would have tried to fix and I…
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Thank You
Hey my lovely, Thank you for letting me call you lovely, for letting me caress you with my words for the first time. Thank you for letting me see you for the first time. I think I understand you a little better now. I think I know what was missing in all those years when…
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Still Learning
Hey you, I honestly don’t know how to start or even what to say. I feel your pain. I feel you craving a relationship. I feel how anxious you are to talk about it. I am sorry for judging you. I know that there is still a part of me that judges you for wanting…
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The Cost of Healing
Hey you, I have to disappoint you, and it breaks my heart. Today I realised that there is something I cannot do for you, something you have been yearning for. Something you miss so deeply that it feels like your heart is tearing into a thousand pieces when you think about it. And I am…
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Trusting Me
Hello you, I would love to call you sweet or lovely, but I know you don’t want that. I have given you a week. I have given you a week to run and hide. I have given you a week in which I did not ask you to do anything or force you to walk…
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Becoming
Hello my Lovely, I’m sorry that I haven’t talked to you in a while. I had a lot going on in my life and I honestly didn’t know what to say to you. I have been letting go of a lot of things and people, and I am still not done yet. I sometimes don’t…
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Checkers and Books
Hey my lovely, So… we’re losing people left, right, and centre, and the next big thing is probably coming in September. I am so extremely proud of you, and today showed me how far you’ve come. First of all, I’m proud because you’re losing people, and it hurts, but you’re not dwelling on it. You’re okay with losing…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 