Category: Being Me
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No regrets
Hey you, You know when you watch those shows that just hit the spot… I had one of those today and I wasn’t even expecting it. It kind of came out of nowhere and pressed every button I forgot I even had. What if I’m not good enough? I know I am not good enough.…
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Living my Dream
Hey you, I get it now. I get why we felt sad every time we went on social media and saw those posts. We were comparing ourselves to the people who are already where I want to be one day. I was comparing those people to myself. I did it without even realising that I…
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Unfair
Hey you, I have to admit that I was kind of scared the last few weeks. It felt like you were falling back into a hole that is difficult to come out of. I was honestly scared that we would fall so deep that I wouldn’t be able to get you out of it as…
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Deciding
Hey you, I think I am about to disappoint you. I feel so overwhelmed right now, because I have the possibility to actually go to Scotland now and I have the possibility to actually do something, but I want to do more than I am able to. I want to see as much as possible.…
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Choices
Hey you, I feel like it’s about time to say goodbye. I feel like we are about to part ways because everything has been said and done that needed to be said and done. I have to admit that I don’t know how I did it. I don’t even know why we are at this…
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My Capacity
Hey you, I don’t know if we are pausing or running right now. Maybe both? I want to act like I have it all together and like I know what I am doing, but honestly I feel really lost right now. It feels like I am hanging in the air flying and I don’t know…
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Looking Back
Hey you, Are you trying to reward me for letting you behave in ways I don’t condone? I have let you run away and hide for the past few weeks. I have taken it easy. I haven’t pushed and I let you do whatever you wanted. Usually I would have tried to fix and I…
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Thank You
Hey my lovely, Thank you for letting me call you lovely, for letting me caress you with my words for the first time. Thank you for letting me see you for the first time. I think I understand you a little better now. I think I know what was missing in all those years when…
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Still Learning
Hey you, I honestly don’t know how to start or even what to say. I feel your pain. I feel you craving a relationship. I feel how anxious you are to talk about it. I am sorry for judging you. I know that there is still a part of me that judges you for wanting…
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The Cost of Healing
Hey you, I have to disappoint you, and it breaks my heart. Today I realised that there is something I cannot do for you, something you have been yearning for. Something you miss so deeply that it feels like your heart is tearing into a thousand pieces when you think about it. And I am…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 