Category: Being Me
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Spiralling
Hey my lovely, It’s time. It’s time to be active. It’s time to move. I know you’re scared, and I know you’re down, but that’s exactly why we have to move now. I gave you weeks to come to terms, and I feel like you have. You have accepted that you are scared. You have…
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Impoding
Hey you, I’d love to write something. I’d love to talk and tell you how I feel. But how do you put feelings into words when they have no description? I honestly don’t know what’s going on right now. I don’t know why I’m feeling sad. I don’t know why my heart is hurting. I…
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I am Valid
Hello my sweetness, I noticed in my last post that I didn’t give you a fair chance to truly show yourself. I noticed that you were hurting and jumped straight into “fixing mode” without even giving you a chance to speak or show yourself, and for that I am truly sorry, and I honestly get…
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I am Safety
Hello my sweetness, Why are you running away? What are you running from? And why don’t you feel safe enough to show me what’s wrong? There is hurt. I feel your heart aching. It’s okay to show it, and it’s okay to let it out. I honestly don’t need to understand it to know it’s…
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Another Good-Bye
Hello my Sweetness, We lost something big today. It’s the fourth time we’ve had to let go of our mother and face the fact that she isn’t part of our life in the way we wish she were. I understand the reasons and they are valid. That doesn’t change the fact that it hurts. It…
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I can handle this
Hello, my dear, We need to prepare for a fight. It’s going to be a hard battle, but we’ll win because we have before. We’re in an environment where our boundaries aren’t being respected, and it’s hurting you. I don’t want you to hurt, so we need to set boundaries and keep them. Let’s do…
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It’s not Fair
Hey, I’m angry at you, and I cannot tell you why. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t know. Well, I do know. I’m hurting. I’m hurting, and anger feels safer than hurting. Being angry at you means I don’t have to feel my pain. It means I’m in control. It means…
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… to Silence
Dear Silence, I know now that you aren’t really silent. I know that you are the whisper within me, trying to guide me without forcing me, trying to heal me without pressuring me, trying to love me without losing me. I understand now that you are me. You are the part of me that I…
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Finally Listening….
Hey my sweet, This isn’t going to be a long letter to you, but I wanted to take a moment to tell you about the last few days and why I’m so proud of you right now. Your body kind of gave out on Thursday and said, “I need some time,” by getting sick. And…
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Finding me in Silence
Hello my sweet, I want to take a moment to share your successes with you. Something that’s come a bit short these last few weeks. So here it is. First success:We’ve lost weight. So much so that a few things don’t fit as tightly anymore and you had to tighten your corsets. I’m genuinely proud…
Sarah Smith’s Path to Healing 